Expected exception

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  It’s suffocating??? For days and months and years….. It’s so damn hard to live on expectations of your loved ones sometimes. It’s hurting and when you are unable to fulfill it, you should be ready to be reminder about it everytime you feel little happiness. It’s always about you should do this but why not like if you want do this and that???

             With parents, friends and everyone who gives a opinion about us like we don’t know ourselves enough. When we feel like don’t want to meet people why do I have to pretend like I want them with me, just so I don’t seems weird. Why there is a pattern to do things if not then you are called out by every one who thinks how you are. The one who has expectations always make you remember that you are unable to even fulfill a simple thing. However it’s so damn hard for you to done and you try your best to complete it… . It never been best for them. They still going to find some issues with that.

               If a person who is not your loved ones it won’t affect you much. Still there is a big chance that when your loved one let you know that how you should behave, do things, what they expect from you and you are born just to make them feel proud. It does have many advantages like they gonna love you and let you feel like you are important. How about when you failed??!! It’s like you can’t even do one thing properly….. What a disappointment you are….. Makes you feel like the worst person ever. Do they know it’s going to be a deep scare on mind and soul of person.

              Guess, I got something from it and that’s a quote saying…”expectations always hurts no matter from who it is”. Good thing is, if I am unable to fulfill my expectations I will never throw myself away. It’s not to be hard on yourself based on others review on you. It’s know what you are and no one can ever know yourself better then you. There is a whole new world where you can find the same maniac as you are… okay that’s a joke. However, you will find so many people with same things and you will find that it’s not bad to know some people……

          Parents with their children, some loved ones and some friends. Is it okay if I don’t want to be with people and don’t want to make friends anymore? I think that’s  okay now that I don’t feel that spark when I see someone say something about me, now I know myself. There is still a question that what about the things they told me about myself when I am in middle of finding myself. Everything changed but the sweetness we had in our relations is gone and I can’t seems to found out anymore.

          Love yourself the way you want to be loved….. Find yourself the most unexpected way. You need yourself more than anyone else in whole freaking world but we always trade ourselves with some habitual patterns.