Little angel

There are so many things around me. however nothing is comparable to you.
there are time when everything feels dull, unintrested yet have to face somehow. it’s the day i found you when you didn’t even opened your eyes. i fell for you. although we never spoke like normal because our language are way different….but we always had the most mesmerizing coversation. i always remember the way you staring me with those doe eyes of yours. still those puppy eyes are in my memory and i love to live those memories often. The way you always gives me priority and find your homr in me. It makes me feel honoured that i am someone who is loveable and loved by you. everytime you know the side that no one even knows that exist.
Still remember that day when you opened your eye and i find the way you staring at me. then there is some nights with just you and me and your antiq habits. the way you always makes those tired nights funny and always find your peace on me. some struggle to make sure you survive and stay with me. those cute moments i have in my mobile of you i often see them and find myself missing you again. although it hurts to see you levaing however i am happy that you are a most beautiful and important part of my life.
you are never been just a pet for me but a family who is loved. you show me so many aspects being by my side and i am always be gratefull for your presence. just wanna say thank you when we didn’t got to say last goodbye to each other…..

-to the one who got away (my cute squirrel)

Expected exception

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It’s suffocating??? For days and months and years….. It’s so damn hard to live on expectations of your loved ones sometimes. It’s hurting and when you are unable to fulfill it, you should be ready to be reminder about it everytime you feel little happiness. It’s always about you should do this but why not like if you want do this and that???

With parents, friends and everyone who gives a opinion about us like we don’t know ourselves enough. When we feel like don’t want to meet people why do I have to pretend like I want them with me, just so I don’t seems weird. Why there is a pattern to do things if not then you are called out by every one who thinks how you are. The one who has expectations always make you remember that you are unable to even fulfill a simple thing. However it’s so damn hard for you to done and you try your best to complete it… . It never been best for them. They still going to find some issues with that.

If a person who is not your loved ones it won’t affect you much. Still there is a big chance that when your loved one let you know that how you should behave, do things, what they expect from you and you are born just to make them feel proud. It does have many advantages like they gonna love you and let you feel like you are important. How about when you failed??!! It’s like you can’t even do one thing properly….. What a disappointment you are….. Makes you feel like the worst person ever. Do they know it’s going to be a deep scare on mind and soul of person.

Guess, I got something from it and that’s a quote saying…”expectations always hurts no matter from who it is”. Good thing is, if I am unable to fulfill my expectations I will never throw myself away. It’s not to be hard on yourself based on others review on you. It’s know what you are and no one can ever know yourself better then you. There is a whole new world where you can find the same maniac as you are… okay that’s a joke. However, you will find so many people with same things and you will find that it’s not bad to know some people……

Parents with their children, some loved ones and some friends. Is it okay if I don’t want to be with people and don’t want to make friends anymore? I think that’s okay now that I don’t feel that spark when I see someone say something about me, now I know myself. There is still a question that what about the things they told me about myself when I am in middle of finding myself. Everything changed but the sweetness we had in our relations is gone and I can’t seems to found out anymore.

Love yourself the way you want to be loved….. Find yourself the most unexpected way. You need yourself more than anyone else in whole freaking world but we always trade ourselves with some habitual patterns.

Home…

Home…… A beautiful place or should I say person. I should also address it for an ecstatic feelings. Something where I don’t have to hide my flaws. I can be however silly I can be. A person with sensitive nature and stubborn personality. Where I don’t have to pretend something which I am not…. Where I won’t misunderstood the most.

It doesn’t matter if it’s place or person. As long as it shows how as a human being don’t need to be in race, thoughts, beliefs, habit, cultures etc. Therefore there is no other parameters to find out that you are living right. There is no rules in world that describe how you should live, but as for humans sometimes they forgot that they always got what they deserve. It’s just sometimes they don’t like when someone is different from them live with them just same. Maybe still don’t know that how to accept the fact that everyone is different from one another.

The question is do we really have to find the home in some place or person???!! Why it can’t be us… Ourselves. Why do we always find comfort in others. Maybe because we don’t know how to make a sentence about ourselves. Sometimes we always seek validation from others about ourselves. Does that mean if someone won’t tell us they we are good at something, we never believe that we are good. It’s just we can organise every single thing in our life but not ourselves.

http://poemfromsoul.poetry.blog/2022/06/28/peace/

However, according to our inner self…. We never know how to handle our emptiness. Not in ways where I am empty without someone or something. For the one who always fill like there is emptiness in them and they are finding themselves. I think emptiness is beautifull and whole. It always shows how strong you are and how many gems hidden in there. Something which we always wanted to have because if you look a little closer and with some patience in emptiness there is your home…. There is a mystery. A while new universe where you are loved the way you are and loved the way you want…. Just feel your emptiness and find that home…..

Uninvited

Death… The one who everyone fear. Well, but the secret is death is the only truth. The truth which we are scared to face.

I want to share something which is in my mind because today someone died and a very cruel death. Sometimes just thinking about the way some people died at most tragic way run chill through my body. At the times I think that did they deserve this? But I can’t go deep as I am only human.

The thing is when we are alive in this world with so many , like family, friends, people we met on a daily basis. We are always shows or do whatever we think is true. We always stick to our belief. Sometimes we do Or say things which are not meant to, but that’s life. How we are just angry at each other and the next second we see the death got the other person. Human beings can be cruel at times but when nature shows how cruel it gets, we can’t fight it.

It’s like a person who is dead got the peace forever but what about the one with memories. It maybe because of habit. We may have habit of each other, but can we ever forget what we talked last time to the person who is no more….

I think the most painful is one where you never got to say goodbye. That’s the thing death never gives a chance. That’s the ultimate truth. Let’s forget about parents remarks, school remarks, social shit as well, those busybody people as well, those friend who betrayed you, and the one you loved at a times.

As long as we live without being harmful to ourselves or others, don’t give anyone else the right to order you around. That doesn’t mean you are always right… It’s just sometimes good memories is more powerful then people. So cheer yourself up by yourself.

http://poemfromsoul.poetry.blog/2022/06/10/far-away/

Just let it go slowly everything while being happy with yourself and others. Because death is the most beautiful for the one who is gone but let people know what is tell who are with memories…..

At the end ” Life goes on”

Little secret

Guess who thinks that when people can’t look into the eyes are the one who is shy???

Or maybe not confident enough… Right!!!! This all are we know about eyes.

Does anyone have the habit like mine. Like when you see other people’s eyes you feel like 🤩.. Amazing, beautiful.

http://poemfromsoul.poetry.blog/2022/06/07/eyes/

I didn’t mean like as for beauty wise or how big or small or it’s shape… It’s like when you see their eyes you can feel what it is there to see so many things which are hidden. You feel like let me watch some more time maybe I found something. It’s magical. I love to see people’s eyes who are my loved once Coz there are so many secrets work.

When I looks at people’s eyes there are so many colors and so many patterns. I love seeing them as they give me some different kind of happiness. There is something which makes me wants to know people’s eyes and I want to see in them as long as I can. There are times when so many literally misunderstood me for that. I am not even flirting it’s just naturally not possible for me to watch someone in eyes and not reading how it’s doing.

Like saying goes, “eyes are the door of our soul” And I am never gonna think that this is not true. Eyes are magical… It shows you beyond you know the person however. It makes you sometimes think that am I wrong to know this person or night that wow this one is too good to be true about someone.

No matter which color eyes you have… It always shows how you are as a person. It always tells the truth no matter what. Coz eyes are magical as always….