Little angel

There are so many things around me. however nothing is comparable to you.
there are time when everything feels dull, unintrested yet have to face somehow. it’s the day i found you when you didn’t even opened your eyes. i fell for you. although we never spoke like normal because our language are way different….but we always had the most mesmerizing coversation. i always remember the way you staring me with those doe eyes of yours. still those puppy eyes are in my memory and i love to live those memories often. The way you always gives me priority and find your homr in me. It makes me feel honoured that i am someone who is loveable and loved by you. everytime you know the side that no one even knows that exist.
Still remember that day when you opened your eye and i find the way you staring at me. then there is some nights with just you and me and your antiq habits. the way you always makes those tired nights funny and always find your peace on me. some struggle to make sure you survive and stay with me. those cute moments i have in my mobile of you i often see them and find myself missing you again. although it hurts to see you levaing however i am happy that you are a most beautiful and important part of my life.
you are never been just a pet for me but a family who is loved. you show me so many aspects being by my side and i am always be gratefull for your presence. just wanna say thank you when we didn’t got to say last goodbye to each other…..

-to the one who got away (my cute squirrel)

Expected exception

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It’s suffocating??? For days and months and years….. It’s so damn hard to live on expectations of your loved ones sometimes. It’s hurting and when you are unable to fulfill it, you should be ready to be reminder about it everytime you feel little happiness. It’s always about you should do this but why not like if you want do this and that???

With parents, friends and everyone who gives a opinion about us like we don’t know ourselves enough. When we feel like don’t want to meet people why do I have to pretend like I want them with me, just so I don’t seems weird. Why there is a pattern to do things if not then you are called out by every one who thinks how you are. The one who has expectations always make you remember that you are unable to even fulfill a simple thing. However it’s so damn hard for you to done and you try your best to complete it… . It never been best for them. They still going to find some issues with that.

If a person who is not your loved ones it won’t affect you much. Still there is a big chance that when your loved one let you know that how you should behave, do things, what they expect from you and you are born just to make them feel proud. It does have many advantages like they gonna love you and let you feel like you are important. How about when you failed??!! It’s like you can’t even do one thing properly….. What a disappointment you are….. Makes you feel like the worst person ever. Do they know it’s going to be a deep scare on mind and soul of person.

Guess, I got something from it and that’s a quote saying…”expectations always hurts no matter from who it is”. Good thing is, if I am unable to fulfill my expectations I will never throw myself away. It’s not to be hard on yourself based on others review on you. It’s know what you are and no one can ever know yourself better then you. There is a whole new world where you can find the same maniac as you are… okay that’s a joke. However, you will find so many people with same things and you will find that it’s not bad to know some people……

Parents with their children, some loved ones and some friends. Is it okay if I don’t want to be with people and don’t want to make friends anymore? I think that’s okay now that I don’t feel that spark when I see someone say something about me, now I know myself. There is still a question that what about the things they told me about myself when I am in middle of finding myself. Everything changed but the sweetness we had in our relations is gone and I can’t seems to found out anymore.

Love yourself the way you want to be loved….. Find yourself the most unexpected way. You need yourself more than anyone else in whole freaking world but we always trade ourselves with some habitual patterns.

Home…

Home…… A beautiful place or should I say person. I should also address it for an ecstatic feelings. Something where I don’t have to hide my flaws. I can be however silly I can be. A person with sensitive nature and stubborn personality. Where I don’t have to pretend something which I am not…. Where I won’t misunderstood the most.

It doesn’t matter if it’s place or person. As long as it shows how as a human being don’t need to be in race, thoughts, beliefs, habit, cultures etc. Therefore there is no other parameters to find out that you are living right. There is no rules in world that describe how you should live, but as for humans sometimes they forgot that they always got what they deserve. It’s just sometimes they don’t like when someone is different from them live with them just same. Maybe still don’t know that how to accept the fact that everyone is different from one another.

The question is do we really have to find the home in some place or person???!! Why it can’t be us… Ourselves. Why do we always find comfort in others. Maybe because we don’t know how to make a sentence about ourselves. Sometimes we always seek validation from others about ourselves. Does that mean if someone won’t tell us they we are good at something, we never believe that we are good. It’s just we can organise every single thing in our life but not ourselves.

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However, according to our inner self…. We never know how to handle our emptiness. Not in ways where I am empty without someone or something. For the one who always fill like there is emptiness in them and they are finding themselves. I think emptiness is beautifull and whole. It always shows how strong you are and how many gems hidden in there. Something which we always wanted to have because if you look a little closer and with some patience in emptiness there is your home…. There is a mystery. A while new universe where you are loved the way you are and loved the way you want…. Just feel your emptiness and find that home…..